Freestyle: Life

I hide the real me no one knows I can be the best girls there is I ask tough cause if I don't I get told to grow up and be strong there's no one that hasn't told me that a tear is a weakness a cut is pain and a blade is not right but I don't fucking care anymore people just need to stop and see whats its like to live my life to show that I can live with out the ones that cause me pain the blood I have shed NO ONE will get me out of this place alive and U will never get out alive eather Life is what's the problem with the world people get mad when they don't get what they want but I learned that if I work hard I can have just what u want I have never been given things just for the fun I have to work for them I have to fight to have them my life is something I fight for everyday I bargin with god and the devil to let me stay a little longer each morning u live to die and I die to live

Freestyle: Am I Real?

Why am I here?
I'm back inside these quiet walls.
I can hear my thoughts screaming in my head.
His voice is still in here and I'm scared.
It's calling my name
Begging me to do his deeds
And no matter how much I refuse
He won't leave me alone.

Freestyle: Curse

It's three a.m.
I still can't fall asleep.
This voice in my head is still haunting me
And I don't know who to ask for help.
I don't know who's voice it is.
It scares me so much
But I'm trying my hardest to hide my fear.

Freestyle: My Purpose

I want to find my purpose.
I want to know my life has great meaning.
I have so many questions in my mind,
So many doubts I want to clear.
Is the man in the sky real?
If he is,
Did he make a mistake?

Am I insane for thinking he is real?
I feel like I speak alone when I pray
Because I never hear a response.
Maybe I have no faith.
I never truly believed in him
And for that,
He now despises me.
Has he given up on me?
Is there any way to recover my faith?
I've spent years asking and searching
But I still find myself questioning your existence.
If you are real,
Where were you when I needed you?
Did you even know I was lost?

You have seen my devils reveal themselves.
You saw my soul get tainted and misused.
Every sin I have committed
You witnessed them beforehand.
After everything I have done,
Will you still save me?
If you won't, who will?

Freestyle: The Blade

Tears roll down my face yet the tears only make it worse the pain I need the blood I need the pain the razor brings its the only thing I look forward to I need it I crave it I can't help it but I try to put it down as I watch my life drop away right in front of me now here I come strait down to meet the devil Im a sinner and people dong get it

Freestyle: Tears

Tears that fall
Tears that don't
Tears will stay in
Tears will fall out
Tears of pain
Tears of fear
Year have come and gone

Freestyle: The Light

Life is like a dark tunnel,
You can't see anything.
You don't know where to go.
Whatever you do feels wrong.
Nobody is with you.
But then there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
You may never reach that light,
But it keeps you going.
That light is hope.

Freestyle: The Man

Down by the railroad lies a body.
A man.
He was only 35 and I killed him with my own hands.
And now I lie in wait for My Death,
For what I have done to him.
I die as he has died.
No one to stop me,
The devil comes to get me,
Drags me to hell and I can't stop him.