Freestyle: My Purpose

I want to find my purpose.
I want to know my life has great meaning.
I have so many questions in my mind,
So many doubts I want to clear.
Is the man in the sky real?
If he is,
Did he make a mistake?

Am I insane for thinking he is real?
I feel like I speak alone when I pray
Because I never hear a response.
Maybe I have no faith.
I never truly believed in him
And for that,
He now despises me.
Has he given up on me?
Is there any way to recover my faith?
I've spent years asking and searching
But I still find myself questioning your existence.
If you are real,
Where were you when I needed you?
Did you even know I was lost?

You have seen my devils reveal themselves.
You saw my soul get tainted and misused.
Every sin I have committed
You witnessed them beforehand.
After everything I have done,
Will you still save me?
If you won't, who will?