Update: Removal of This User

Emily:

   I've gone ahead and removed my things from the site guys, you can all take over--I made the majority of you admins. I'm simply too busy with life to keep up with all this! However I AM still writing to myself, so don't worry about me! Do your best! Have fun and Good luck!

Freestyle: Love at first glance

From the first time I saw her I knew there was something special about her. she had a wild side that showed in her eyes, but she was also caring and kind. the more we talked and got to know each other the more we fell for each other. she had a troubled life growing up, but so did I, and thats why we loved each other so much and why we understood each other so well. Eventily we started to like each other but we didn't know we both like each other till a few day went by and he asked me out and I was like omg is this true and I just broke down crying in his arms and told him if I sad yes would u help me and if u help me in return I will help u. And I said yes and he jumped up and down picking me up and was spinning around with me in his arms and we went to that same place everyday till we started to grow old of it cause we knew every part of each other and of the place and we loved each other so much and wanted to spend the rest of our life's together. we wanted to raise our children better than what our parents did. we didn't want to make the same mistakes. He eventually got the curage to ask me to marry him and I stated to jump up and down and grabed him and pulled him to me and we kissed for ever it seemed like hours but it was only a few mins After that we fould out it was midnight and we both knew we both wanted to get married at midnight and we talk about it and plan to go to LA and elope

Freestyle: Life

I hide the real me no one knows I can be the best girls there is I ask tough cause if I don't I get told to grow up and be strong there's no one that hasn't told me that a tear is a weakness a cut is pain and a blade is not right but I don't fucking care anymore people just need to stop and see whats its like to live my life to show that I can live with out the ones that cause me pain the blood I have shed NO ONE will get me out of this place alive and U will never get out alive eather Life is what's the problem with the world people get mad when they don't get what they want but I learned that if I work hard I can have just what u want I have never been given things just for the fun I have to work for them I have to fight to have them my life is something I fight for everyday I bargin with god and the devil to let me stay a little longer each morning u live to die and I die to live

Freestyle: Am I Real?

Why am I here?
I'm back inside these quiet walls.
I can hear my thoughts screaming in my head.
His voice is still in here and I'm scared.
It's calling my name
Begging me to do his deeds
And no matter how much I refuse
He won't leave me alone.

Freestyle: Curse

It's three a.m.
I still can't fall asleep.
This voice in my head is still haunting me
And I don't know who to ask for help.
I don't know who's voice it is.
It scares me so much
But I'm trying my hardest to hide my fear.

Freestyle: My Purpose

I want to find my purpose.
I want to know my life has great meaning.
I have so many questions in my mind,
So many doubts I want to clear.
Is the man in the sky real?
If he is,
Did he make a mistake?

Am I insane for thinking he is real?
I feel like I speak alone when I pray
Because I never hear a response.
Maybe I have no faith.
I never truly believed in him
And for that,
He now despises me.
Has he given up on me?
Is there any way to recover my faith?
I've spent years asking and searching
But I still find myself questioning your existence.
If you are real,
Where were you when I needed you?
Did you even know I was lost?

You have seen my devils reveal themselves.
You saw my soul get tainted and misused.
Every sin I have committed
You witnessed them beforehand.
After everything I have done,
Will you still save me?
If you won't, who will?

Freestyle: The Blade

Tears roll down my face yet the tears only make it worse the pain I need the blood I need the pain the razor brings its the only thing I look forward to I need it I crave it I can't help it but I try to put it down as I watch my life drop away right in front of me now here I come strait down to meet the devil Im a sinner and people dong get it

Freestyle: Tears

Tears that fall
Tears that don't
Tears will stay in
Tears will fall out
Tears of pain
Tears of fear
Year have come and gone

Freestyle: The Light

Life is like a dark tunnel,
You can't see anything.
You don't know where to go.
Whatever you do feels wrong.
Nobody is with you.
But then there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
You may never reach that light,
But it keeps you going.
That light is hope.

Freestyle: The Man

Down by the railroad lies a body.
A man.
He was only 35 and I killed him with my own hands.
And now I lie in wait for My Death,
For what I have done to him.
I die as he has died.
No one to stop me,
The devil comes to get me,
Drags me to hell and I can't stop him.

Freestyle: Lingchi On the Heart

Inside I can hear them.The voices that haunt my dreams.The voices that fill my head with chaos.They whisper, menacingly, about things that make me clamp my hands over my ears.But that does no good, for they are inside.I beg them to be silent, but they continue, their words cutting my heart like a knife.Memories appear before my eyes. Memories I don't want to see.The times when I was most lonely.The times when I was most hurt.The times when I was most helpless.The pain, the blood, the agony in my heart.I try to shut them out, but they snake their way back in.Their voices are like nails on a black board, hurting your ears with the awful sound.They are like lingchi on my heart.I get stares from people, but I don't care.I just want these voices to leave me in peace.And for these memories to fade away.It's at times like these when I turn to the blade. It distracts me from these tortures.But only temporarily.Soon, I will have to face them.Soon, I will have to conquer my fear of them.Soon, but not now.

Poem: My Funeral

A mother weeping.
A brother and two sisters still in shock.
A father eager to leave the scene
Counting down the seconds, tick-tock.
No friends around.
Not a single rose left in his grave.
A tombstone left in blank
Because no one remembered his name.

Song: Lonely Moon

She was sleeping on the moon.
I was living on the sun.
The stars all gathered around her smile.
Then one night she was gone.
And though I tried to call her name
The night quickly turned to dawn.

Lonely moon shine your light
I beg you please come out tonight.
Show the world your precious smile
My whole life has become fragile.

Freestyle: ¿Como Quieres Que Te Amé?

Como quisiera decirte que te vayas.
Que nunca quiero volver a verte.
Como me gustaría borrarte
Y olvidar que en un tiempo te amaba.
Se me hiciera mas fácil para decirte adiós.
Mas yo se que nada de eso pasara.
Me enamore de ti y no quiero perderte.
No puedo imaginar mi vida sin ti.

Freestyle: My Life

I wish someone could tell me why I hate this life.
Why can't I open my eyes with a smile?
Each day I despise myself even more,
Now I just hate my life.
I hate the life I live,
I hate the sins I commit,
And I'm sure God hates my writings.

Poem: Send Me An Angel

Father, draw me a picture of what I am
Or even a path for me to follow.
Show me I'm worth breathing
And my heart is filled and not hollow.
Convince me that I deserve to live
That sooner or later I'll make you proud
Because right now I can't stand breathing
Or walking under your clouds.
I'm tired of being invisible to the world.

Poem: Fallen Star (A Tribute to Jim Morrison)

A starry sky,

A desperate, hopeless, cry for help,

a shriek in the night.

The sky has collapsed,

the moon, once radiant, crumbles.

Darkness has overtaken the King.

His throne stands alone,

with the spiders weaving their homes.

A single star illuminates the palace,

Poem: Shadows

Darkness sets upon the world,
Reminisce of light scattered across the mind,
Shadows of inequity's chambers unfurled,
Hurled into this realm like demons of some kind.

Always hiding and secreting in the absence of light,
Dancing and mocking, your mind they betray,
Wide they fall, living beneath the walls of fright.
Scorning impure hearts, leading blind souls astray.

Enticing the lost with such emblementical waves,

Freestyle: Just Kill Me

Why are you punishing me?
Do you want to see me dead?
If so, tell me.
I'll gladly stop breathing this instant.
I already feel dead
And there's no reason for me to live.
No one will miss me if I'm gone.
So why don't you just kill me now?

Poem: Understand My Insanity

I want you to see this life through my eyes.
Have my demons follow you everywhere
And I want to hear you call His name.
Maybe this time He'll care.
I want you to see all the blood I saw
Dropping from her mouth to the floor.
Feel all the anger I felt

As he laughed and begged for more.

Song: Death Chamber

By Leah Domas

Help...
Me escape from this chamber of death
Help...
Me wash away these dried spots of blood
Help...
Me cover my wounds
Help...
Me escape this chamber of death

Freestyle: My Angel

I have fully convinced myself that I'm not alone.
Beyond the stars and moon
There's a God watching over me.
He has been so bless full to me
I can only wish to meet Him soon.
But even if I don't get the chance to meet Him,
I still want to thank Him
For he has blessed with an angel.
She's perfect.

Song: Who Is My Savior?

Are you scared of the dark?
Do you believe in demons?
I don't blame you if you do
Just don't judge me for my actions.
I've lived in the dark
And when the light made it disappear
It only revealed my demons to me.
Then there was only one voice I could hear.
I got so angry

Poem: Inner Demon

By Leah Domas
They tell me hi everyday
They say don't be scared
We just want to play
And I believe them
They pull me closer everyday
They say it'll be ok
Should I trust them?

Song: Call His Name

Pray for me
Keep me in your mind
I've lived so wrong
I was guided by the blind
The devil called to me
I served him well
He condemned my path
And God watched as I fell

Freestyle: My Insanity

Something is missing in my life.
I don't feel comfortable where I am.
Every time I see these lines
I'm convinced I have gone insane.
There is so much anger and discomfort
I can see why people keep away from me.
How do I unleash this anger?
I need some sort of release and I can't find one.

Freestyle: I Wish I Knew

I wish I could know what you think of me.
Do I make you smile?
Am I ever running through your mind?
I also wish I could tell you that I want you.
Every second that goes by
I feel like I'm fading away from you.
When I have you in my arms
Time seems to stop.
I find it hard to believe it's true
Because I swear it feels like I'm dreaming.

Freestyle: BaghDad

Today
I found out
I am
A father
My wife
Wrote to tell me
Drake Corinth
Is healthy
And alive

Poem: Alone

By Leah Domas

No one can hear
My cries of sorrow
No one can see
My watery Tears
No one can feel
My heart breaking
No one can smell
The rusty sent of my blood